When Surrender Feels Like Quitting

"But he said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.’" - 2 Corinthians 12:9

It’s been a minute since I’ve sat in this space with you. I am a huge believer that what is revealed to me is a lesson for me first and then to share. Every word that leaves my fingertips is something I have wrestled with, something I continue to learn.

Recently, I’ve wrestled with quitting law school. I’ve felt lifeless, like I’m only existing. Pouring out so much into others, into work, into ministry…and yet feeling so depleted myself. Growth has not been a straight line. There are steps forward, and sometimes steps back. But trust me, Jesus remains, reminding me that He is still right there.

Writing has always meant so much to me. It was my voice when I was silenced. It continues to be the place where I feel, where I see, and where I forgive, my weaknesses and my strengths alike.

My journal is not just pages; it is the altar where God meets me, even in the tension of depletion, growth, and setback.

Even when I feel like quitting, His call hasn’t quit on me.

Even when I feel lifeless, His Spirit breathes life.

The truest yes isn’t about pushing harder, it’s about surrendering deeper.

Journal Reflection:

• Where in your life does surrender feel like quitting?

• What burdens have left you feeling lifeless or depleted?

• Write about a moment where growth felt like a step backward.

• What did Jesus remind you in that place?

• How has writing or journaling given you a voice, or helped you see both weakness and strength?

Prayer:

Lord, I confess my weariness.

I confess the temptation to quit. I choose to surrender. Not to despair, but to You. Thank You for meeting me in the wrestle, for reminding me that You remain. Breathe life into my lifeless places. Teach me that rest is found not in giving up, but in giving over.

Amen.